Faith or Fear?

I’ve never been in a situation in which my faith is tested. First of all, what is faith? Faith is total confidence and trust in the unknown. I believe that if your faith is tested, your decision can be driven by fear. In tablets 10 and 11 of Gilgamesh, Utnapishtim, Gilgamesh’s father, explains to his son the story of how he came to be a god. He had to compile a great deal of faith in order to leave his life so that he may live, or so they told him. Either he had great faith in his god, or he had great fear that if he didn’t do what was asked, his life may be destroyed. “The voice of Ea telling me the secret
Came whispering through the reed walls of my house:

‘You reed house walls, listen and hear me whisper;
listen and be attentive to what I tell you.

Utnapishtim, son of Ubartutu,
Abandon your house, abandon what you possess,

Abandon your house and build a boat instead.
Seek life instead of riches, save yourself.”

p. 66.

This is the type of load that Noah (Noah’s Ark) was given, which is enough to give a man diarrhea from anxiety. From this, we can learn that when given these types of choices, our only choice is to choose and pray that we chose correctly. (haha, this was on purpose). There is no way to be positive that the choice was the right one, just like we can’t be sure that in having faith, we are believing in something that actually exists.