Dissapointment in Fitting In

It can be strenuous to fit in a society one is not accustomed to be a part of. Primarily, it is hard to build expectations you are not sure will not be met. I have studied in various schools and know that not only do you want to fit in, but you don’t yet know exactly what you’ll be fitting in to. I used to want people’s attention because it’s very hard to be a new student where everyone knows each other. Like James, I would have trouble fitting in. God's Secretaries says that “The outcome of his violent, threatened youth was not someone filled with vitriol and vengeance, although James could be foul-mouthed, but what might be called exaggeratedly social behavior, a longing for acceptance and a desire for a life and a society in which all conflicting demands were reconciled and where all factions felt at home.” Pg. 9. I wouldn’t consider myself to have been that desperate for attention that I resorted to bad words, but I did try to fit in and not be a hassle to anybody. Also, my plans, expectations, and hopes weren’t always met, like if I planned to make friends, often people made that really difficult.Nicholas Adams stated that “the new king would soon discover, however, that seventeenth century Englishmen had about as much love for union, whether fiscal or political, as their modern descendants. The dream of unity-an abstract, intellectualized, Scottish and hence European ideal of political togetherness- would within a year fall foul of an English conservatism which valued it own hard-won freedoms far above any high-falutin’ ideas of political unity.” Pg. 13 I have learned now that, as the poet Max Ehrmann stated in his work, Desiderata to “Enjoy your achievements, as well as your plans”.